Lay down

For the past 10 months, I’ve been been dealing with a bulging disc, the lowest on the spine. I’ve been unable to sit without a variable amount of pain, jog more than half a block, or do pretty much anything physically worthwhile minus a few rare occasions.

A few weeks ago, I herniated that disc making it almost impossible to walk without lots of pain, except for a week after a second epidural shot. Now I’m at home, laying down on a bed all day waiting for a couple doctors decide what surgery I need in order to function normally again.

I tend to be a pretty low maintenance person. I like to be able to do most things on my own without inconveniencing others. Not that I’m a recluse or that I avoid interdependence, I’m just used to being able to help people rather than everyone else helping me in my helpless state. It’s humbling. Maybe I need this to remind me that I am at the mercy of a loving God who has given me the gift of loving and supportive family and friends.

I’ve been occupying myself with a few books, reading blogs, building a photo management system for New Life Ranch, editing wedding shots, dvds, and the ultimate time-suck.

Whatever the purpose of this injury is, it sucks right now. Please pray that I can use this time wisely and learn from it, as well as a successful surgery and full recovery.